My pastor recently compared our relationship with God to a rollercoaster. He was primarily speaking to the kind of people who enjoy rollercoasters and he said something that really stuck with me, “no one watches the people on the rollercoaster when it’s climbing up the hill”. We all know that slow and arduous feeling of the coaster chain pulling the cart up to the highest peak; that peak that provides all the necessary momentum needed to push the coaster through all the loops and turns and weaves. For people like me, who absolutely love riding rollercoasters, this bit is the most boring part…
Lately, it feels like we will never reach the crest. It’s hard to wait for that moment when everything changes. That rush of potential energy rapidly transitioning into kinetic energy as the back end of the coaster flips over the crest and sends us all into a ride we can neither escape nor slow down. I long for this moment.
I often think of Christ and the promises that the Father has made to Him. Did you know there are things that Christ has been promised that even now have not yet been fulfilled? In Hebrews 10 it says that after Jesus offered Himself as the final sacrifice for sin, good for all time, He then sat in a place of honor at the right hand of God and then it says this,
“There He WAITS until His enemies are humbled and made a footstool under His feet.”
Right now, we see that satan still has a lot of opportunity to do evil in the world. Yes, death has been defeated and ultimately all the plans of satan will result in his destruction. Thank God the Bible tells us this in advance! Otherwise how could we endure our time on earth. Yet we still see a patient endurance on the part of Jesus when He sees everything and knows everything and chooses to submit Himself to the perfect timing of the Father.
Are we to expect something different in what is asked of us than what was and is exemplified in Jesus? Of course not. For in many places His words say if He suffered then we will suffer and if He endured then we too must also endure. It goes further and says we are privileged to be given opportunities for the sharing of the same difficulties as Jesus because in doing so our faith is perfected and our endurance made complete.
I often have to remind myself of the Lord’s words when He said, “The Lord isn’t really being slow about His promise, as some people think.” (2 Peter 3:9) This isn’t about going to Nigeria. This is about the absolute desperation in my soul to see the Lord’s righteousness reign on the earth,
“but we are looking forward to the new heavens and the new earth He has promised, a world filled with God’s righteousness.” (2 Peter 3:13)
Understand me, this isn’t a longing to escape suffering on my part. It isn’t a defeated state of wanting the world to end so I can just get through my day. This is a passionate outcry for the Bride of the Lord to be POSSESSED by His HOLY SPIRIT.
These things I keep in my mind, praying over and over as I speak with the Lord. If I look around at my circumstances I’m faced with virtual impossibility in regards to our return to Nigeria. Cirumstantially my nursing skills lay dormant, my career is nonexistent, my living situation is uncertain, and even more so my future over the next few months.
Yet I know of whom I have believed. I know His voice. I know His presence. I trust in Him and I will continue to even when it feels like we have been two feet away from the crest for 6 years.
As when Jesus asked His friends when many of His followers had left him, “Will you leave me too?”
I reply as Peter replied, “But Lord, to whom would we go? You have the words of eternal life.” (John 6:68)